I’m not worth anyone’s salt
I am not worth anyone’s time
No amount of words
could ever convince
me and tell me that everything’s gonna
be alright and that you’ll always be there for me

BULLSHIT

what’s suffocating me right now
are these tears dead at night
as I wail and sob and sigh
to the moon
I cry looking at the stars telling them
about how
lonely I am
There scars on my arms
and bruises on my skin
could never compare to the
scars of broken friendship as my best friend refuses to talk to me anymore
or the bruises of how my family makes me feel so fucking useless
or how I’m never going to be
anyone’s precious salt.

Sometimes I wish
how I wish I never existed
in this God forsaken world
because
because who am I to people
but a worthless piece of shit?
Who am I?
but a person who is needy as I say lines like
No please stay
Sorry I’m the one at fault
Please don’t leave me
I’m the one that’s stupid
Please love me for who I am
I’m the one that was wrong all along
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I ’ m    s o r r y

I’m not worth anyone’s salt